Tantrum!

There's a voice inside my head that says in a snotty childish whine "I wanna go fishing!".  I know, that's silly but that's how I feel.  I would rather be doing something else!  Do you ever feel like you just want to refuse to do what you know you have to do and throw a little tantrum?  That's me.  In my head, I lay down on the floor on my back and kick my feet around and yell NO!  I guess I must be a bit overwhelmed.  HA!  Understatement!

There's no way on earth I'm going to actually do it but it's fun to fantasize about it.  It brings a smile to my face.  I'm under a fair amount of pressure right now with some big transitions so my balance is way off.  I'm fighting being negative and it's just really challenging. 

Insomnia doesn't help and that's been an issue lately.  Melatonin helps put me out but then 3 hours later I'm wide awake.  Tylenol PM is good for about 4.  That's just not enough sleep!  Tonight I try Sleep by Nature Made, God help me I hope for 6!

Ok, I guess that was my tantrum.  I am kind of pounding the keys as I type it.  Thankfully, I'm easily amused and that helps.  My goal for tomorrow is to enjoy a few fantasy tantrums and just keep smiling. 

There, that should balance my positive energy a bit....right?

A Rebel Without a Cause

I'm watching this James Dean classic for the first time as my hubby is next to me on the couch sick with a stomach bug.  I came in after 45 minutes but honestly I don't see what all the fuss is about.  Sure James Dean is a rebel and he wears it well.  Hot as hell and the perfect hair, scrumptious!!  His mannerisms in this movie bother me, the way he lays in the bushes or balances awkwardly on the hood ornament of his car is just a little creepy.

Enough for the movie review.  It's a classic, I'm enjoying it.  The message I love...it's again just what I needed.  Steppin' out, moving and shaking, bucking up against the bad guy.  Love it!

Don't stop bucking up people, that's all I'm saying.  Don't lose your passion, don't lose your individualism.  Just live your life and do the right thing for you.  It's better than doing nothing at all.  Be your own REBEL!

A change will do you good!

I love this song!  The beat is uplifting and the words are fun too.  The chorus gets stuck in  my head which is a blessing in disguise.  No words could be more apropos for me right now.  The world spins faster these days no doubt!

It's nice to be reminded that change is good!  Enjoy the video or not but whatever you do, embrace the change you are going through.  I heard someone talking about  2012 "strap yourself in, it's gonna be quite a ride we might as well enjoy it".  True That!

P.S.  Cool version of this song featuring Peter Stroud.  Nice!

Peace 

It's a FIRST!!!!

Kesa caught a gorgeous pink salmon this morning!  Not her first, but awesome none the less at around 6lbs.  I netted my very first fish today!!  I don't know how that happened.  I guess I just always fish with strong men around to handle the job.  I had no trouble at all.  My third dip scooped her in and it was PHENOMENAL!  So fun!! 

Then, watching the master fish filleter teach his little sis how to clean it when we got home was amazing!

Some say fishing is a waste of time.  It's a commitment.  If I want to create balance in  my life I have to take off before dawn now and then and go laugh and enjoy a creative adventure with the ones I love!  I must!

P.S.  I'm smoking the fish tomorrow and if I screw this up I would break Kesa's heart.  The only other time I smoked salmon wasn't that great so wish me luck!  I think I figured out what I did wrong.  Crossing fingers....

Cheers!!