Tuesday, November 29, 2011

BOOBIES!!!!

Alright, now I have your attention!  Today I'm going in for my annual mammogram.  No, it's not fun and no I don't enjoy it but it's a must do!  Your monthly self breast exam is also a must do!  In January I will celebrate my 14th year being free of cervical cancer.  My cancer was discovered during a routine annual exam at the OB/GYN.  I have a friend who found colon cancer getting a colonoscopy just because he turned 50. 

THIS IS IMPORTANT PEOPLE!  Whoever you are, whatever you do, please do your screenings! 

This reminder comes at a good time while the Movember fund raiser is coming to a close.  That campaign not only raises money but also awareness to Men's cancers.  I think that's great!  Way to go Guys!

It's not just about the Boobies and the Balls, it's about health!  I could live without my breasts.  I hope not to but my life is worth more to me than any sum of parts. 

If you are not up to date with your routine exams, I issue you a challenge:  Get up to date by year end.  That gives you a month.  Hopefully you will be healthy but if not, hopefully you catch it early. 

Be safe and take care of your body, it's the only one you will have this time around.

Monday, November 28, 2011

First Day

This is the first work day of my unemployed journey.  I'm sitting in our home office in my brand new office chair.  That's a good start! 

I'm going to take some time this month to investigate several different avenues for a future.  It's an exciting time for me.  I'm also going to do some things just for me.  I know, selfish right?  Sometimes you have to be. 

It feels like I should get dressed and head to the office.  That will take some getting used to.  My plan is to get dressed every morning and begin working in my home office at a normal hour. 

I got signed up for unemployment and this is my waiting week.  I'm going to call and see if I can start to use the Work Source resources during the wait.  I think I can but we'll see.  I'm not even sure what they offer but again, it's an opportunity to think outside the box.  That's all I want right now.

I had a wonderful quiet weekend and I feel ready for the day.  A vendor that I have worked with the past 19 years is taking me to lunch today to celebrate our time together.  It is a very fancy restaurant so I'm very excited! 

I hope you enjoy your day!

Friday, November 25, 2011

Black Friday 101

Some people black Friday and some people don't.  It's an investment that not everyone is cut out for.  I'm middle of the road in that I would never camp out or fight with anyone over the door buster savings item.  I do however use the opportunity to trade some of my time for a lesser amount of money.  In fact, it's the hunt that I enjoy.  I shop for myself and I Christmas shop all on a mapped out project. It brings me joy, maybe I can pass on a veterans advice!

The first thing I do is venture down to the corner store on Thanksgiving and pick up the daily paper pregnant with fliers and ads.  It's so fun just to look through and sorting is easy.  Three piles: first round yes, price checking pile and rejects.  You break it down from there.  I know you could go online and perhaps I will but currently, I love this break from standing on my feet in the kitchen on the big day. 

I was going to go at 4am just to slip in behind the others and have guaranteed full stock, but avoid the main items that garner all the attention.  The alarm got turned off because I have been on overload lately which I feel zero guilt for.  I hit the stores just after 9am.  Timing is everything!  The discounts have clocks ticking so first off to Bed Bath and Beyond for the 10am deadline on 20% off my whole order (this stop was for me).  I then cut over to the store at the mall and scooped up all 4 items I was after and out in 30 minutes. 

Now off to the fabric store, I only had until noon to get the $10.99 fabric for $2.  This is KEY!  Pull your number then shop listening carefully to the announcements.  I pulled my ticket, shopped for 10 minutes and waited another 30 minutes before they called my number.  They announced that if you were in line past noon you would need a signature on your coupon.  Done, don't have to tell me twice.  After the cutting table, I waited another 30 minutes in the check out line.  There I met more fabulous people that thoroughly entertained me. 

After that, I went to two more stores and waltzed in grabbed my items and walked out.  Easy breezy.  That was good too. 

18.7 miles and 5 hours later, I saved a bunch of money.  In the past I have double teamed with my daughter and that is a super fun experience.  A lot of people go in pairs so one stays in line, that sure helps with time.  I didn't mind and now I'm ready to dig out my Christmas ornaments and celebrate! 

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Thanksgiving Thoughts

I'm so blessed and it's not hard to find a list of things that I'm thankful for.  I know it's cliche' but I can't think of a better way to celebrate the day:

  • Mark who's the best friend I've ever had.
  • Lafe who always makes me laugh and think.
  • Kesa who teaches me and acts as my mirror.
  • My birth family who remind me where I came from.
  • My friends who accept me exactly as I am.
  • My cats who cuddle me a little closer when I'm sad or sick.
  • My beautiful home on a nice slice of Bothell.
  • My spiritual community that sees right through any BS I might be hiding in.
There are so many other things I'm thankful for.  I have to go now because we're smoking our very first turkey today and roasting one in the oven as well.  A ton of work to be done.  The thing I enjoy doing more than anything else on the planet is to cook side by side with my wonderful husband.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!

LAST DAY!!

My last day was weird but wonderful.  About 25 or 30 people showed up at the local bar to celebrate the night before.  It was touching beyond belief!  My husband and kids came, that meant the world to me.  You know how it goes, everyone is bringing you shots of this or that and you toast and drink.  Yikes, I was hung over yesterday!  It was worth it though.  I didn't cry until my friend Ali cried and then I couldn't turn the water works off. 

I met with HR to sign final paperwork and then I was free to go whenever I was ready.  My Boss, who is quite shaken by my departure had to escort me to the door.  He was very supportive and encouraged me to do it any way I chose.  I cleaned my desk and took my stuff to the car.  I walked around and signed off with some workmates.  When I left the loading dock my good friend Terry walked me back to the stairwell.  She cried and once again, on came my water works.  I went to the bathroom and tried endlessly to stop crying when I realized that it was not going to happen.  I went to my desk as quietly as I could and shut down my computer.  I stood up and said "Ok Guys, I'm outta here".  Every single person on the whole floor stood in my honor.  My closest friends walked out to the aisle way to hug me on my way out.  One friend hinted in my ear that it was pre-planned.  Wow, that was something else!  I'm so blessed and honored.  So I cried, who cares!

An ironic side note from the day, Lafe got a new job the day I ended mine.  We both agree that the planetary shifts are powerful and wonderful.   

This experience seems to have taken forever and dragged on and on.  Now it's over.  That chapter of my life is closed. 

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

T-Minus 1 Day

I'm writing this one early in the morning because I'm going to the bar at 3pm with a bunch of workmates.  I know I won't be in blogging shape after that. 

I'm so thrilled to be able to share this creative project with you!  As I mentioned, my daughter is one of my best teachers.  We made two blankets to give to our good friends Sean and Brad.  They are moving across country and they now have something warm and cozy to remind them of us.  So awesome!  Here's the pictures! 

Here's Kesa getting the corner tied just right.  That pool table has served as a place to lay fabric out on more than one occasion!


Here we are tying our brains out.  There's a particular way to tie it so that all the patterned sides of the bows come up to the plain side and vice versa.  That takes some getting used to but then you just tie and tie and tie!  And talk and laugh and be together.  Oh yea and sip some wine.


The finished product!!  They are quite beautiful!


The guys love them as you can see! 



It was such a perfect gift, a great way to spend an afternoon and an awesome distraction from the thing that has been consuming my thoughts.  Creative energy is the best!!


Monday, November 21, 2011

T-Minus 2 Days

2 days to unemployment!

This is bizarre in a ways I never imagined.  I think it's going well.  HA!  Pretty cool news, an e-mail went out to a ton of people who all wore purple in my honor.  Not so uncommonly I stroll in wearing purple corduroy pants, white top, green sweater and of course, purple scarf and jewelry!

The all company good bye party was great.  I don't know how many people but a few dozen for sure.  We didn't all fit in the conference room and I couldn't see who was outside.  Lovely purple theme as well.  I'm crazy, they all know it!

My final meeting with Boss and HR went well.  The one realization I had is that I will be escorted to the door.  Not surprising and totally appropriate but it hadn't entered my mind.  Oh well.  It's an interesting experience.

Off to celebrate dinner with our friends that are leaving.  So sad but so excited for them!  We'll never lose touch.  Then I can post the pics of the gifts we made for them!  ; ) 

FAITH, FAMILY AND FRIENDS are the three things that are MOST important and valuable in this lifetime!  It's a bonus that they are all F-words!  Cheers!

Sunday, November 20, 2011

T-Minus 3 Days

I would rather sit here and type a lie right now but I won't.  It would be easier than to admit the truth that it was a tough day.  My enthusiasm waned today.  Then, when I least expected it, my day dramatically improved, courtesy of my daughter.

First, let me say that I have the most supportive husband on the planet.  I've said that before, I want to shout it now.  I realized this morning that my ambitious plans went without considering his feelings.  He was up all night worrying about money.  Who can blame him, this is a scary time in our lives.  I feel so guilty I could vomit, who wants their best friend to be up all night worrying?  The guilt will not help anything so I should let it go but I'm having a hard time.  I am indeed responsible for worrying the poor man to sleeplessness.  Lesson learned, I jumped ahead and got wild ideas that are outside the comfort zone. 

I have made many choices in my life that have not been wise.  I realized today that your choices never stop being your choices, they are cast in cement.  At the beginning of our relationship I made choices about money that crippled our plans.  I'm responsible for that.  In Mark's mind, I will always be "that girl".  Not for the lack of forgiveness but for self preservation.  He would be foolish not to remember and be cautious.  I have to find a way to own that.  It's my scarlet letter.  No matter how much you change, others will never forget the things you would rather they did. 

The bright spot in my day came from my lovely daughter!  I can't post the secretive details, we have very dear friends that are moving across the country.  We wanted to send them off with something to remember us by.  I consider myself creative but my daughter blows my freakin' mind.  She had the idea, procured the supplies and taught me THE COOLEST thing!  We had a blast and the creative energy really perked up my spirits.  I can't say enough how blessed I am!!  I'll post the pictures of our endeavor in a couple of days. 


Saturday, November 19, 2011

T-Minus 4 Days

Saturday!  I spent the morning organizing my desk in our home office.  A long way to go but much improved.  My intention is to do a lot of work in there and not do the regular 8-5 go to the office. 

Also I went through my closet and drawers and purged 3 garbage bags full of stuff I don't or shouldn't wear.  My daughter will likely reap the benefits of my "skinny clothes".  The job I'm leaving is uber low key on the dress code so it's time for me to step it up.  The result of my inventory was satisfactory.  I need to supplement what I have a bit, but I do have a good foundation.

I'm letting go of high heels for good. I just purchased two pair of sensible dress shoes.  All the dress pants are getting hemmed.  A couple of other pieces being altered and I should be good to go. 

Enough about clothes, I apologize.  I have decided to pursue a business license and strike out on my own to earn money.  My talents are in problem solving, process improvement and other professional services like contract negotiation and technical writing.  The creative juices are flowing!  I need a name.  I need a business plan.  Well, let me finish the last 3 days at work and we'll go from there.

Funny story at my expense:  I said something a bit snotty to my Husband this morning, jokingly but snotty.  He said "I thought you said you were letting go of the fight"  Busted, I laughed and said "only at work!"  My bad. 





Friday, November 18, 2011

T-Minus 5 Days

3 more days of work!  You may have noticed that I monetized this blog.  Hey, I'm going to be unemployed so I'll take every dime I can get!  Please feel free to click on the ads and support my efforts and my sponsors!!  Ha!  Shameless?  I don't think so but borderline for sure. 

Today seems to be all about appreciation.  Lots of posts on facebook are a daily dose of thanks-giving and I like it.  It reminds me how grateful I am for my life.  I appreciate this company and especially some of my coworkers.  I've learned a lot and I will miss the collaborations.  I'm so grateful for all my Friends and family and a million other things!

I got to help a friend in crisis today which reminded me that we all have crisis' and we help each other.  "We get by with a little help from our friends!"  That's what balance is all about! 

I'm livin' the dream....

Thursday, November 17, 2011

T-Minus 6 days

4 Working days left!  I'm so excited!  Beyond ready!  My creative energy is raging and I am on fire!  The farewell activities are set for a cake and goodbye party on Monday and a bar party on Tuesday.  Not what I would've chosen and a sign that I haven't completely let go of the fight.  None the less, it will definitely work.

My future is so uncertain even though I begin to understand aspects of it in small ways.  The things I do best are clear to me.  I'm a creative problem solver.  That message is coming through loud and clear.  The path is beginning to show itself.

Odd side story, my bosses boss takes a group of people to lunch every week for 3 weeks of the month.  I'm in group C.  His theory is that this is our one on one time even though there are 8-10 of us at a time.  It does work, it's fun but I'm not a huge fan of spending the money.  At any rate, let's just say that my last lunch was a bit awkward.  A good chance for me to not be obnoxious and step back and let the situation flow.  This is a milestone for me.  <wink wink>  I had a good time!  Hmmmm....let go of the fight??  HELL YES!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

T-Minus 7 Days

Wednesday, November 23rd, 2011 will be my last day at a job I've held for almost two decades.  I'm at a cross-roads.  Please join me for the next few weeks as I document my journey.  I promise to write something on this blog every day.  Maybe the adventure I'm on can get you thinking about your own path.  So exciting!

Today I make the commitment to blog daily because I think I need it to survive!  It can help me focus and stay accountable for my choices.  It is also a way to increase my creative energy.  As you know I actively create my life so I need as much as I can get.  My next career will definitely include CREATIVITY! 

I welcome your feedback.  You have surely been in the job market and maybe even the unemployment line.  Shout out with comments and please be honest.  I may not agree but I want to consider all my options. 

It's so exciting to be 43, have an amazing husband, two amazing adult children and the whole rest of my life to look forward to.  I feel so blessed that I am free to figure out what the next chapter holds with no worries.  It's a huge blessing that it comes right at the holidays when I want to be at home more anyway!

Off I go!

Friday, November 4, 2011

Assume Nothing!

Thank God it's Friday!  My week has been very frustrating!  Please allow me to vent for a moment. 

The reaction from my coworkers about the news of my departure has been a mixed bag.  Most begin by asking where I'm going.  The reaction begins when they learn that I have not landed a job somewhere else yet.  Some are legitimately happy for my new adventure.  Some are flat pissed and feel like I'm abandoning them.  The latter is quite surprising to me.  It is arogance at it's finest!

Why arogance?  They are all assuming that this is completely within my control.  It is not.  It's a complicated situation.  Why assume that you know anything about it??? 

On the flip side, what if it were that simple?  Why be rude to me about it?  I was in a restaurant yesterday for a coworkers celebratory lunch with 12 others (who I thought were my friends).  One started in, another jumped in and then others and they ganged up on me saying "you just hate working with us so much you're leaving with no plan"?  My feelings were really hurt.  My emotions are running on high as it is but this was really difficult.  I'm sure they care for me but it stung. 

These people are clueless about my life.  This is a great lesson for all of us.  The way you feel about someone else's life is jaded by misinformation!  Don't jump on someone based on things you think you know.  It's an age old adage, ASSUME NOTHING! 
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Wednesday, November 2, 2011

The silence is over.

I'm finally free to speak about all this "CHANGE" I've been hinting to!  My career path has come to a fork in the road.  I'm leaving the position that I've held for almost 2 decades.  I would love to go into detail about the circumstances of my departure but I will refrain.  Just good ass covering, I don't need no legal trouble. 

My experience is one for the books.  I was nearly 25 when I was hired in 1993, my daughter was 3 and I was a solo parent.  We got bought out in 2007 and I was laid off and returned 4 months later to work for the new owners retaining my tenure.  I literally grew up in this company.  Needless to say that I have been working up to this for a while.  It's a tough thing to join the ranks on the unemployment line in this economy.  I trust my instincts and I'm a woman of great faith.  

The timing works out nicely since my kids are grown.  Of course, I have the most supportive husband on the planet (sorry to you other guys).  I feel incredibly liberated.  Not only liberated from a job I haven't felt passion for in quite some time, but also just plain free to do what I want.  I will miss collaborating with some of the most wonderful coworkers.  Some sour pusses that annoy me will not be missed.

Please join me on this journey.  Changing careers in ones 40s is bound to be a ride.  The biggest opportunity for me is to let go of fear and take this leap of faith.  Into the future I go, creating what I want in this chapter of my life.  Bon Voyage!